November 18, 2011

Photoshoot att South Luzon Expressway for our low light photography project!

At Paseo De Sta. Rosa playing with the SLR

Dalawa lang yan e.

UNA, kung aamin ka na mahal mo sya.

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PANGALAWA, kung itatago mo nalang.

Ang hirap mamili lalo na pag aamin ka sa bestfriend mo. Hindi mo alam kung tama ba na i-risk ang friendship na inaalagaan mo o i-risk na baka pwede naman kayo mag work.

Pinili kong umamin sa kanya 2 years ago (almost) and it turned out good naman. Kaso ngayon, wala na. Parang iniisip ko kung tama ba na umamin ako? Kasi ngayon, feel ko nawalan ako ng bestfriend. Hindi na mababalik yung dating samahan. Ewan ko kung tama to pero ganun nararamdaman ko e.

Four years kayo mag kakilala nung high school, mag bestfriends kayo. Nag fall ako sa kanya and I took the risk of telling her I love her and asked her out on a date na naging ligawan na.

Ang hirap lang ngayon, sobrang na mimiss ko na sya. Gusto ko syang lapit, kausapin. Oo nga naman, ano nga ba ang pumipigil pa sakin na gawin yon?

Ang plano talaga, lilipat ng UPLB. Naka-1 term din ako sa DLS-CSB. Kung hindi lang talaga nag ka problema, sana nandoon pa ako. Nag stop ako ng 2nd term. 20+ units lang ako sa Benilde at kailangan ko pa ng 10+ pa ata na units para sa cut-off ng UPLB. Lipat akong DLSC para mag pa taas ng grades. Okay naman grades ko 3rd term SY 2010-2011 pero mas pinili ko mag stay nalang kasi…

Ngayon parang sayang na. Don’t get me wrong. Walang problema saking ang Canlu. Gusto ko lang lumayo ng sobra ngayon. Okay na naman ako e pero kung ganito rin ang trato mo sakin mas mabuti na nga lang na lumipat ako. Kaso hindi ko na magagawa yun e, sayang lahat ng hirap ng magulang ko, sakripisyo nila kung lilipat na naman ako. Yung gastos ng pang araw araw ko, dorm, yung oras sa pag lilipat ko galing CSB hanggang Canlubang. Gigising ng sobrang aga para lang kumuha ng 2 page na papel sa CSB tapos babalik na namang Laguna.

Hanggang ngiti nalang ba? Pinang hahawakan ko pa rin lahat ng sinabi mo pero hanggang kailan ko dapat gawin yon? Kailan ba ako dapat sumuko? Sabi nila, wala naman mawawala kung hindi susubukan, pero hanggang kailan? 4 na taon ng HS at halos 2 taon na mag kasama. Feel ko na baliwala lang ito. Daig ko pa dayo.

Oo, okay ako. Pero siguro na sanay na ako sa sakit ng nararamdaman ko.

Ako na siguro ang pinaka-senting tao. Mag isa sa kwarto, kumakain mag isa at nanonood ng One More Chance, kinikilig, lumuluha. Napaka-hopeless romantic ko na ngang tao eto pa. Tinatawanan ko nalang sarili ko.

Different sides of ME

I = Though ; ME = Act

I tend to think of what people would think about me. What I do is try to coup with them and then see if my personality can fit their's. That's why sometimes I would rather go by myself rather to be with other people because I'm shy.

ME WITH FRIENDS

Usually I'm an outgoing person, friendly, active, hyper and laughs all the time. I really don't want any dull moment but then again I try to see if other people can handle the "me" that I am. For my friends that I know for a long time, of course I'm more comfortable showing who I really am. Most of the time, I think about my friends first rather than myself that I act sacrificing a lot for them because I want is the best for them.

For some, I tend to be shy. You can't please everybody so better for me to just be quiet. It's not that I don't want to socialize with them but because of the thought that they might think I'm "Feeling Close".

Kat turns 18! 10-29-11

Simple yet memorable! The best part of it was preparing the place! 2 hours before the celebration we fixed the chairs, tables, backdrop and decorations at the venue. And everyone was panicking! And when Kat arrived and smiling all the tiredness went away! She was beautiful and really greatful.

Food was great! After party at her place, chill and jammin' :)