When is the right time?

It's been a week since Lucid's dance concert #CurtainCall but I'll be blogging about it later.

#CurtainCall - Huling Sayaw

When do you know that it's the right time? I think you don't wait for the right time. You create it. There is no point in waiting for the if you're not doing your part to get it. But what if... all this time, after all that have happened to me for the past months (accepting Lucid, sacrifices, relationships), all that I've done, all this time I've prepared myself to tell you everything, as I don't want to hold back anymore... It's just not happening right now. You know me, I will if I could but suddenly a lot of factors again to consider.

I've always considered everybody's feelings. What's the best decision for the org. Serving others. The best interest for my family. To the point that I'll be the one adjusting and making the sacrifice. Don't get me wrong. I don't regret anything that I've done and I would love to still serve at any given opportunity. but now, when everything is about to end... That it's my turn to make myself happy, why do I still need to make that sacrifice? 

If I could just laugh it all out. I would. Well, I've been try to. But sometimes I just can't help myself not to stop, stare and look far away thinking...

"Start appreciating the memories you have and stop begrudging the ones you never got to make." - The Lucky One

For my past posts, I've just been grateful for everything. Successful dance concert, heart warming feed backs and compliments, supportive friends and family. I appreciate every one of them, every single memory, every single experience that I've learned...

I think I can still make this one. I didn't say I won't do it but just when is the right time?

MONG