Risk. Decision. No regrets.

Tough week it is. Midterm exam week, yup. We're already half the term and it's so fast! 7 more weeks then it's our finals already. A lot of practical exams to be pass on the last week plus training, I'm getting wasted! I just want to sleep all day without thinking about anything.

I don't know what's up with me but I'm getting too lazy on doing anything. I still have a report coming up next week, haven't started doing my research paper, a video production due next weekend, an art gallery that I have a video, music cover and photo shoot, plus theater practices for our performance literature class. ALL IN 7 WEEKS!

And issues/matters coming up that I don't even want to --- no, that I mustn't even think or bother but I have no choice. I just can't ignore it and it will eat me.

There so many things to do and 24hrs is too short.

But what am I doing now? Blogging instead of doing my research. Looking at the NBA for players movement this offseason. Waiting for Don Allado's sanction to the PBA. If you could just hear me and my friend talking about PBA/NBA stuff we're like sports analysts.

But I really did review for my exam today. Tomorrow I still have a midterm exam, COMVALE then dance workshop in the afternoon.

Get yourself back together Ramon! Can't mess up this term! You have to prove things, remember? You're an achiever, 10 months bro! Do your best!

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

Status of a friend.

It was you who I though of first. If this decision to what ever response you will give me, I hope everything will be alright. I have to risk it coz if I don't then I'll regret not saying it to you tho I maybe still need time to think about things. MONG

Tuesday and Wednesday

Tuesday ( June 26) Quiz day for MICECON (Micro Economics). I don't even know hope I've answered that quiz. Haha! Economics isn't really my thing but I think I did well with that quiz. Next class was VIDPROD (Video Production), looking forward for that class coz that's what I want to do, video angels, shots, concepts, analyzing video. Training with Lucid in the evening. Jogged through the campus, bunny hops going down and up the stairs, then Insanity workout c/o Neo! 40min non-stop workout! Everyone was dying. Hahaha! But no pain, no gain guys. We have to get strong for the 2nd term! I don't know why but the security guards is always angry at us. Especially with reservations that I've reserved for a long time already. Tsk. We follow how the system works with the administration but the guards always think that we're playing them. Wednesday (June 27) Script reading for PERFLIT(Performance Literature). It was a good run for the first time. I can't remember what happened much that time. hehe. At COMPART (Computer Art) Audacity and MuseScore was introduced. They're audio editing programs. Worked on our final project. I'm doing 2 videos, 1 song cover and 2 photo shoots. Good luck with that! Training comes! The painnn! More running and stretching!

If you only knew how much we miss you and still care for you. I hope when the time comes when you realize that all we're saying here is for you to be a better and safe, that your wake up call won't be that harsh for you, but that can't be helped.

What we're doing here is what we think is the best for you. I'm really sad right now. I want to talk to you and tell you that we still really care. That you don't have to distance yourself from us. Hindi ka pabigat at kahit kailan hindi ka naging sakit ng ulo.

I'm not your dad or even your relative for you to listen to. I'm just a friend that is concern.

It's over even before it began.

My day went great for the early part of it.

3pm.

I met with some of my elementary batch mates today. We weren't complete tho, but catching up with them was really nice. We ate bunch of street food near Raymundo Gate at UP. Isaw, tenga, kwekwek, proben, shakes. First time to eat street food that much in a long time. Can't do that at Manila because you don't know how clean at is there. Went to Aerianne's place to visit her. It was a quick notice, good thing she was home.

Discovered UNLITXT10! One day unlimited for globe to globe subscribers but on specific areas only. My sister said it can't be used at Manila. Hopefully I can still use it when I'm at Sta. Rosa tomorrow!

Went home around 9pm. For the first time, my dad asked me about my love life and was surprised that he knows that me and ... aren't together now. It's been 8 months and I didn't have the courage to tell my parents that. Sucks to be me right? Hehehe. I'm very shy talking to them about stuffs like that. But also for the first time, I opened up with my current situation concerning that "love life".

Now here things got rough.

Later after that I discovered something really bothering. I'm trying to help this person but I think I'm being too much attached. And it hurts when I'm hearing stories being told to us by a friend. It hurts when all we're trying to do is help the kid improve and explain how to be independent and don't rely too much on the people around you (yes, there will be friends who will stick with you but not ALL would stay till the end. ) but I think even though that the kid is listening, you can't take way the close mindedness. I know we're all longing for that attention and love from other people but doing this sorts of things? The depression that the child is experiencing is way too much for her age. Way too much for us either. We're trying to give the best advise as a friend, the guidance of an older sibling and I hope even the slightest chance that we can have an impact to the kid. I can't really tell if there is any. I don't see the kid everyday. We also can't tell much or even scold the kid coz we don't have the right to.
Now I'm stuck in this situation. There's no one to blame. I've put myself into this. I don't know really what I'll do next. There's too much people getting involve and getting hurt. Things will be much easier if it was just me but when was things easy in the first place? God didn't created the world full of roses.

I hope also that I can give this much attention to my own siblings. I don't even know if I'm a good brother to them.

Going back to my talk with my dad. He said that focus on what I have now. Know my priorities especially my organization and academics.

And as much as I want to tell you guys what I told my dad for him to say those words, I'll leave you guys this...

"It's over even before it began."

Starting the term with a bang!

CULTURA VERDE

Photography from Green Media Group and The Lasallian of De La Salle University-Manila.




MONG